shuxian: enjoys cold minty shower in the morning, reading in the train, getting lost in daydreams, running in the open, browsing in a bookstore, having a slice of cake in the afternoon



so much so that i have to draw it!!!


my precious moment figurine present which i cant stop staring at!

on a happier note... CHRISTMASS IS COMING SOON!!!
oh, i love christmas... it's been raining and i cant tell you HOW MUCH i love rain.... and especially at this point of time... the weather is wet and cold... the breeze has this particular smell of it, smell of christmas... orchard road is brightly lit with all the christmas decorations... oh and the shopping trips with beloved friends... great company, great dinners... how lovely... i used to wish for a white christmas... probably i didnt understand what christmas is all about... now that i do, rain or snow, it doesnt really matter...
=) i am sorry that those who i always hang out with has tolerate my sudden proclamations of 'christmas is coming' or 'i love christmas'. =) it is just that my beloved darlings are coming back!!! heehee!
oh, and this christmas, i am so going to pull off a lovely and beautiful surprise... that idea flew into my head days ago when i, for no apparent reasons, opened up one of those memo box. CANT WAIT!

i hate comparing and being compared...
whether you are smarter than me, you earn more than me, you dress better than me, you look prettier than me, you run faster than me, you multi task more than me...
i dont give a damn.
let me do my own race, let me run at my own timing, my own speed. i really do HATE all these.
really, just pretend i dont exist... i am not here to show you what's better or what's not.
i am just doing my own stuff.
leave me be!

i thought 21st birthday was supposed to be fun and happening with lots of screaming and giggling... but mine is not...
in fact, everything around me changed, drastically... i am still in a daze.
last saturday, i went out with grace to buy her wedding dinner dress (hah, my taste was superb!!! => really think i was more excited about shopping than she really was) and i got pretty irritated when kor called to ask if i could rush down to meet him... anyway, the thing was,despite me being angry with him for all the rush and stuff, he took out a paper bag and said it was for me, my birthday present... a lovely heart pendant and a pair of earrings, in a shape of a teddy bear... according to mummy, he wanted me to choose something that i like... but since i couldnt make it, he chose something that he thought i would have like, something that resembles teddy bear... i am touched. really touched...
anyway, i was all hyped up about sunday cos someone was going to bring me to the ZOO!!! but then, it was pretty disappointing when he said, going to the zoo is abit too expensive... and besides, there was a manu match later that evening... =( never mind...
on monday, 23rd, i was asked to dress smart casual... so i skipped ME tutorial and went home earlier... hmmmmmm, guess what, he BROUGHT me to EQUINOX for dinner!!! and opps, i was kinda dressed more to the casual side... hahahha, that feeling was totally POOF!!! undescrible... i was able to choose ANYTHING on the menu. a bowl of soup cost a WHOPPING $18!!! how could i bring myself to order it? so i said, nah, one main course would just be fine... well, he said, i have saved especially for this, so you HAVE to have a bowl of soup.... hahahhaha, i have prawns for main course and my goodness, the prawns were BLOODY good! okay, i have offically declared all the western food i ate in the past were lousy, nothing beat this!!! the view was extraordinary! the service was good, the ambience, needless to say was SUPERB... and i noticed, we were the youngest there!!! =) but that's not the point. the point was that, the night before, i was so upset that he COULDNT bring me to the zoo (i dont care, i love ZOO!) and all that crap and poof! i got this fabulous dinner tonight... i was thinking, oh my God, how could i? the thing is that, he is NOT rich, at all and to go all the way to make my birthday dinner a perfect one??? i am crushed...
then on tuesday, i went to meet my cjc friends... it was just a dinner, i intended it to be, seriously... but they bought me a present and a surprise cake... the cookie and cream cheese cake was goood... and oh my GOD, i love my precious moment figurine!!! i am a sucker for display thingy... and always wanted to start on the collection of precious moments stuff and here i go, i got one for my birthday!
this birthday thingy is too perfect... just too perfect... i was so happy... do i deserve all these? was i a good sister? was i a good girlfriend? was i a good daughter? was i a good friend? i dont know...
it is pretty sad these many people love me, it is so sad, that he loves me these much.... it is so sad that my kor loves me these much... am i worth it?
Thank God for everything. Thank YOU for making my birthday an unforgettable one... i just cant forget that evening in equinox...


my cutie dumbo!!


yummmy!


aint he cool?


my beloved hugh jackman!!!!!!! =)


from shouie's blog too! at newton food centre!


stole from shouie's blog! =) at east coast cycling!


still my favourite!


i wish it would rain NOW!


another picture of the dark skies...


where is the long awaited storm???


reliving my childhood by lighting all these up.