shuxian: enjoys cold minty shower in the morning, reading in the train, getting lost in daydreams, running in the open, browsing in a bookstore, having a slice of cake in the afternoon


i wanna go europe to explore... i wanna visit scotland especially... why? cos i wanna see for myself if the men are really that tall and huge, with tanned skin and bulging firm muscles... i wanna see if women were of slender figures and violet eyes... simply, i wanna see castles, waterfalls and everything as describled in julie garwood and judith mcnaught's stories... hell, i wanna bring back one of those men! =)
went to watch gigolo wannabes with grace the other day and i have to admit, it is really better than i thought it would be... at least, better than singapore's... hahahhaha...
anyhow, it brought me to this... do we, women, need men? yes, i always mention how i wanna marry a rich husband, be a tai tai and rot my life away... and how i wanna marry as young as possible say, 26-28 and have 4 kids (which by the way, is inspired by mandy's family)
but then deep in me, i dont wanna have a husband...! i wanna have a successful career and i wanna buy my own house and car! i wanna buy my own pradas and tods shoes... i dont wanna live off someone and certainly not be known as so and so's wife... it shocked me to the core when this pretty ex-colleague of mine married at 30 and now at 32 plus plus, she still have no intention to get pregnant... of course, she has a figure that put ALL of us to shame... and she is rich... and blah blah blah... i was like... WOW, getting married seems so boring...
just as i got turned off by the word marriage, i remembered how i wanted to spend time with my husband before having kids... not to sound nasty but getting pregnant immediately after getting married seems a bit ... too rush and weird to me... it is like getting married for the sake of having kids! i wanna spend time lazing around, doing things both of us like... paying of debts and such before, having kids...
then i thought of the debate that me and my friends once had at the prata shop, why the need to get married (as in ROM and such)? if marrying young is not appealing, marrying old means little to enjoy couple time, (maybe can, but then early retirement seems impossible if kids are involed), if i dont like marriage but wanna be err, like in a marriage, have a guy in my life... i am not too sure about everyone else but when it comes to somethings in life, i am tradition to core. i wanna get married and have that bridegroom-come-and-pick-the-bride thingy... i wanna serve my mummy and daddy tea, i wanna have a ball and have all the friends to celebrate with me... and on top of that, i want the whole world to recognise that i AM married, so if that means putting it down black and white, so be it!
what do i really want then? am i questioning too much? am i challenging the wrong things? what's wrong with marriage? what's wrong with power hunger?

at the end, the best solution i come out with is just to trust in God... i am here to answer not question, to serve not to lead...

after 20 minutes of thinking, i am like... huh? why am i blogging this? shant waste my efforts so i shall just publish it... a fine sample of what goes through my mind everyday... and i realise this pattern, every problem ENDS with GOD. =)

i miss you...
i wish i could meet you up for a coffee and chat for hours...
i wish i could stroll down orchard road and tell you all about my crushes...
i wish you are just a few kilometres away from me...
i miss you...


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the birthday drink! pretty?


grace's sceptical look!


wondering what is she trying to say to me...


marie! and the birthday drink


grace drinking the err, yucky? stuff


grace's present... (image a bit blur -_-')


marie and her present!

if there's only one word to describe what i went through the whole of last week, unbelievable would be THAT word.
i go by this code when i blog. no comments on what others wrote on their blog. yet, i am going to break this code, just for once...
was reading becky's blog when she wrote something about love...
'Love is patient, love is kind. It is not jealous, [love] is not pompous, it is not inflated, it is not rude, it does not seek its own interests, it is not quick-tempered, it does not brood over injury, it does not rejoice over wrongdoing but rejoices with the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, endures all things. Love never fails.' - 1 Corinthians 13:1-8
it was a timely reminder... how accurate.

in a hurry, he grabbed his spray-on deodorant and sprayed some over his chest and armpits and cried, 'HAH! SHORT CUT TO BATHING!' i am once again rendered speechless.


HAH! the HOLE in dhoby ghaut! i am still pretty in awe of it... how did they build that????!!!


i love this sunset!


since when did they build this???


i cant believe this... buddy's actually super duper camera shy!!!


during boon's birthday sometime back...