shuxian: enjoys cold minty shower in the morning, reading in the train, getting lost in daydreams, running in the open, browsing in a bookstore, having a slice of cake in the afternoon


i like you, seriously...
no one made my heart pound faster than you do...
days ago, i was dying to talk to you
hoping yet again you would call my name...
hell, but now i dont
for i am afraid after getting to know you
the magic spell would be broken
i prefer to admire you just from far

these days, i wonder why do i blog
i am so busy trying to catch up with every single thing in my life that blogging is the least thing on my mind... and often, i would come across the problem 'what is to be blogged and what is to be kept private' it may seem useless to blog about something i do with my friends cos they already know what's going on... it is useless to blog about my family cos they are part of my privacy... it is useless to blog about my feelings cos ... it is just me... it is useless to update my blog with photos cos i dont think it is fair to put someone's face on the internet without their permission even though you think/know they are okay with it...
bottomline is, it is just useless to blog....., huh?
other than that, if you guys need to know how i feel these days... i feel in control... and very happpy.. despite the huge mood swing on thursday, i am generally been seen with huge grinz.
when i come to terms with what to blog and what not to blog... i will either make this a more happening site than present OR simply close it down and move on...
wishing you guys happy... -hugz-

MIA
yes, i know... you probably gave up reading this cos you probably thinks that this blog is never going to be updated...
hahahha... you are wrong!
WORK
it sucks to bugger people for stuff to do... you know... to beg for things to do so you can pass the miserable hours away... it sux that some people are getting paid more than you by clocking in less hours... it sux even more to hear people rotting their life away in the afternoon and you... sweating over boredom...
CRAZINESS
one gets pretty crazy after long hours at work... i thought i didnt have any email add... but then, hours ago, someone checked out for me that i ACTUALLY have an email account...!!! and i was so happy!!! see, my station has no telephone... and it is pretty far away from the rest... so i was pretty uncontactable... and now with email, i am part of the gang!!!and i jumped up and down... seriously, and i ran to everyone's desk and annouced to them that i HAVE an email account... madness!
BEAUTY
totally swept away by her beauty... couldnt help but to stare at her everytime i speak to her... and she stares into my eyes too... very very very pretty... i think, by far, she is THE loveliest girl i ever met. wooooooooooooo....
CRUSH
heehee... move over, frank lampard (though you will still be my darling but... not so important now ah... you lost that penalty kick anyway!) make way for ****... i think marie is sick of me gagaing over him... poor girl... =) i realised i am only attracted to certain kind of guys... and that's it... and i think out of everyone, he pronouced my name the best... strange... nobody told me who i was, and then, one day he was like 'shu xian' my heart nearly stopped beating! hahhahahah... very deep and sexy voice... =) oh, and he likes Ball watches.. =) heehee...
-grinz-
-grinz-
FRIENDSHIP
i must say that everytime i work i get to know some people even better... and i thank God for that...
SHOPPING
it is madness, shopping trip at least once every week... i am so broke!

-grinz- anyway, this is an useless post... update again lah... if i get a photo with **** i will be very happy... and dont worry, ben heard ALOT about him... hahahhaha...

finally at long last, i found my book, enid blyton's the folk of the faraway tree! i have been looking for it ever since pri 4!!! or even earlier... i am being surrounded by many many shops, and i am being infected witht the shopping bug... pooo....


oh look! a pair of froggies!!!! =)


a day's spending...


my christmas present from marie... and the silver nail polish!


so sad...


=(


reminding me of someone....


no. 8

poo...
to receive a msg from bern saying 'your second darling missed his penalty!'
shocked that though i havent talked to her in ages, she still know...
as i have felt, england couldnt go further on... luck is not dependable... stupid rooney and stupid rooney...
hahaha, when asked about his opinion on any england match, ben always says, 'not exciting..'

sigh no more lampard sighting... so sad... for some reasons, i feel that lampard looks abit like ben on the pitch.. somehow... think he would be insulted if he hears this... hahahha...

btw, why brazil didnt get in???!!! WHAT????!!!! why why why??? france dont deserve this!!! URRRRRGGGH! okie, world cup ends here for me, no brazil means no world cup. all that qualify shouldnt really qualify! except for italy... damn it... italty, kick germany's ass! portugal, kick france' ass.. BOOOOOOOOOOO!

finally, it is WEEKEND!!! time to relax and hide in the comforts of my room.. heh, not really my room...
wanna hear about my job??? it is fantastic...
it is SO NEAR cbd area and i tell you it is super duper cool to be part of it... you walk among people in cool suits... cute guys dressed smartly and speaked properly, pretty girls in knee length skirts... the lunch time crowd is super duper cool!!! golden shoe complex has the cheapest and the BEST food ever... and the big thing!!! there are loads and loads to shop!!!!!!! my goodness gracious! everywhere was like shopping and shopping and one of the favourite activities during lunch time was SHOPPING!!! oh my goodness... and -blush- i did buy a few stuff... heehee...
incident one:
reporting to HR department on the first day and was sent to OCBC centre east... on my way down in the lift, 5 ang mos came in... the moment the lift doors closed, they started jumping around and complaining about how australia had lost to Italy and blah blah blah... i am like, gosh!!! big monkeys man! and then, TING, we reached the ground floor and the moment the lift doors opened, they stopped their nonsense and walked out gentlemanly... the things people do behind closed doors!!!
incident two:
this woman came into our department screaming: 'ladies!!! any spare shoes??? my heel broke!!!' and she waved her heel in the air! and then ALL the women around me started taking out boxes underneath their desks!!! gosh, one woman went to open up the file cabinet and dished out boxes of shoes!!! all my male colleagues were like shocked!!! one practically in disbelief!!! i still remembered him stammering... 'that cabinet is FOR files!!!' and the woman was like... 'nothing to put there yet what....' jeeesh!
and i observed the crowd while waiting at the traffic lights... women looks smart in pants BUT much prettier in skirts... trust me! women in suits no doubt look every inch a boss or someone in power... but in skirts, they are just lovely... wish i can date them!!! brains and beauty.... AAWWWW!!!
and i also believes in buying expensive shoes... which is why my heels will never break on me... and they last for years... =)
HOWEVER, i also realised that perhaps a bank job isnt my kind of thing... i cant stand being at a desk from 9 to 6... the feeling of being trapped in a room is too much... at least it is much better than meritus mandarin... when i CANT even see the sun... i just feel so... unproductive... i guess, i am really the outdoor kinda person... running around and stuff... which is why i am at a loss now... pooo... what to do with my degree then???
sigh...
oh, my boss is CUTE!!! and because he is so CUTE, when he asked me if i could stay longer... i couldnt resist and said YES... and i regretted it now... guess i will have to go and tell him i can extend till 15 of august and that's that... nothing more... i need to do something MORE MEANINGFUL!!!

=) germany won argentina!!! WHAT THE F***!!! germany sux...! doesnt deserve to win... they always win through penalty goals!!!LOSERS!!! and argentina could have won if they didnt injured their goal keeper! it is so sad... argentina was CONTROLLING the game... 59% of ball possession, THAT speaks alot! sigh... i guess luck was on their side... boo... italy better kick their ass the next round!
am feeling rather negative now since i kinda figured that england would lose to portugal... oh NO, my frank lampard!!! hahahhahah... sigh... but serve them right, for always talking big... it is about time to eat their humble pie... part of me wish they can get into semi leh, they have steven gerrard, FRANK LAMPARD and owen hargreaves... and joe cole... but with eriksson, it is only luck they got this far... =(

will let you see what i have been doing so far when i have time and mood to upload my cam... sorry grace, will try to cycle with you asap... btw, something's wrong with your site??? sorry becky... we will learn how to blade once i finish my work... sorry cheehwee... guess we are just too busy and hope you are feeling better... sorry huiwen... cant cycle with you too... but dinner would be Just as great! ... i think work is killing my lifestyle...

Thank you Lord... i offer you my tears and my joys... take my life and fashion it your way... lead me and guide me... thank you for the wonderful job and the self-exploring experiences... thank you for all that hiccups too... Thank You... i praise you and i love you.