shuxian: enjoys cold minty shower in the morning, reading in the train, getting lost in daydreams, running in the open, browsing in a bookstore, having a slice of cake in the afternoon


just to let you guys know
(and i am fairly positive that those that read my blog are my friends...)
i am currently using this no. 91522098... cos my phone(not exactly though) is outta batt and i dont have the charger... (if anyone has a panasonic phone charger or knows anyone that is willing to lend pls let me know...)
or since i am on the com more than often these days, msn me if you need me...
the people i really want to meet are
cheehwee
huiwen
shouie
i know i should have catch up with you guys sooner but i was busy and broke... sigh
got to go sort out my stuff again...

Well Ballanced You scored 77 %Lefty and 73 %Righty!

Congratulations, you have well developed skills in both hemispheres. You see an abundance of ideas and you can easily make plans without getting lost in possibilities. Both the details and the bigger picture are obvious to you. You can relate to almost anyone, and understand their perspective. Undoubtedly you are good at anything you set your mind to. It may also be possible to hypnotise you.

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 85% on Lefty You scored higher than 57% on Righty You scored higher than 65% on Divergence

Link: The Left or Right Brain Test written by vincex on OkCupid Free Online Dating

was curious how i would score after reading grace's blog... =)

i have yet to reread Carlyle's House and the Other Sketches enough to comment on it. i finished it this morning and i must say i was swept away by it.
her insights and taste is so unique. the style of her writing amazes me... i have never been so deeply moved by a mere 500 words essay.
"Virginia Wolf was one of the most influential writers of the twentieth century. Her experimental style, in particular her use of the stream-of-consciousness technique - as exemplified in her masterpieces...." how very true...

oh, btw, my hp is down. rather, i am left with two bars of batteries for the next two weeks... i will only check my msgs at night... so if you have anything, call my house... yup.

it is so hard to let you go,
so hard to pull myself away from your warm embrace.
then you slowly disappear into that crowd
you tried to wave back at me as much as you can
i tried to look out for you as hard as i can
soon
i finally seen the truth
you have gone
i am all alone
i feel weak i feel exposed i feel vulnerable
i long for the comfort of your shoulders, the warmth of your body
i long for your voice and the smile that takes my breath away
how i miss you. how i miss you.

i have a really wonderful day.
really really wonderful
almost magical.

on the other hand, i seriously cant believe i paid a nearly 100 dollars strap-around-ankel high heels. i cant wear it for long hours. the strap is so tight that it disable blood circulation. and my ankels still feel weird. got a charles and keith
for substitute. cheap. $18.90 and my feet feel like heaven. weird.

erhm. this is really weird...
for the past week i have read two books and they all have to do with americans indian.
about racism, about white destroying the indians, about how they rob the indians of their livelihood, about how cruel whites are to the indians, about how the indians felt about their survival, about the vanishing buffalo.
it suddenly dawn on me that behind each civilisation, or say country, has it own history and secrets.
which leads me back to the book, to kill a mocking bird.
i would say this book has taught me MANY MANY things. i just wish i have the opportunity to tell Ms Janet Lim, Thank You, unlike other teachers in ij, you have not only teach me how to score, you have taught me how to live. Thank You.

with much reluntance...
i watch you leave
you've brought so much sunshine into my days...
how can i bear to say
goodbye?

i have one of the most peaceful and relaxing day ever since examination is over... i cooked pork stew for my family today... it tasted 'bleah' but no one complained... anyway if they do, i will scream at them.
finally finish Faithful Travelers by James Dodson and here is something i want to share with you all...
"...
Always be kind to your brother and never hit. THe good news is, he'll always be younger and look up to you. The bad news is, he'll probably be bigger.
Travel a lot.Some wise person said travel broadens teh mind. Someone wiser said V broadens the butt.
Listen to your head but follow your heart. Trust your own judgement. Vote early. Change your oil regularly. Always say thank you. Look both ways before crossing. When in doubt, wash your hands.
Remember you are what you eat, say, think, do. Put good things in your mind and your stomach and you wont have to worry what comes out.
Learn to love weeding, waiting in line, ignoring jerks like Randy Farmer.
Always take the scenic route. You'll get there soon enough. You'll get old soon enough, too. Enjoy being a kid. Learn patience, which comes in handy when you're weeding, waiting in line, or trying to ignore a jerk.
Play hard but fair. When you fall, get up and brush yourself off. When you fail, and you will, dont blame anybody else. When you succeed, and you wil, dont take all the credit. On both counts, you'll be wiser.
By the way, do other things that make you happy as well. You'll know what they are. Take pleasure in small things. Keep writing letters-the world needs more letters. Smile a lot. Your smile makes angels dance.
Memorise the lris to as many Beatles songs as possible in case life's one big Beatle challenge. Be flexible. Your favorite Beatle song will probably salways change.
Never stop believing in Santa or the tooth fairy. Thay really do exist. God does, too. A poet I like says God is always waiting for us in the darkneess and you'll find God when it's time. Or God will find you.
Pray. I cant tell you why praying works any more than I can tell you why breathing works. Praying wont make God feel any better, but you will. Trust me. Better, trust God. Breathe and pray.
Always leave your campsite beter than you found it.. Measure twice, cut once. If all else fails, put duct tape on it.
Dont lie. Your memory isnt good enough. Dont cheat. Because you'll remember.
Save the world if you want to. At least turn it upside down a bit if ou cant. While you're at it, save the penny, too. Skip dessert.
When you get to colege, call your mother every Sunday night.
Realise it's okay to cry but beter to laugh. Especially at yourself. f and when you get married, relise it's okay if I cry.
Read everything you can get your hands on and listen to what people tell you. Count on having to figure it out for yourself, though.
Never bungee-jump. IF you do, dont tell your father.
Make a major fool of yourself at least once in life, preferably several times. Being a fool is good for what ails you. We live in a serious time. Dont take yourself too seriously.
Always wear our seat belt even if I dont.
Remember that what you choose to foget may be at least as important as what you choose to remember. Someone very wise once said this to me- but I cant remember who it was or exactly what it means.Admit your mistakes. Forgive everybody else's.
Notice the star but dont try to be one. Always paint the underside first. Be kind to old people and creatures great and small. Learn to fight but dont fight unless the other guy throws the first punch. Learn when it's time to open our mind and close your mouth.Lose your heart. But keep your wits.
Be at least as grateful for your life as I am.
Despite what you hear, no mistake is permanent and notheing goes unforgiven. God grades on a curve.
One more thing: Take care of your teeth and dont worry about how you look. You look just fine. That's two things, I guess.
Finally, there's a story I like about an Indian boy at this time of initiation . As you climb to the mountaintop, the old chief tells his son, you'll come to a great chasm-a deep split in the earth. It will frighten you. Your heart will pause.
Jump, says the chief. It's not as far as you think.
This is excellent advice for girls, too. Life is wonderful but it will frighten ou deeply at times.
Jump, my love.
You'll make it.
..."

hope you can understand and maybe be enlightened by this letter written by the father to his seven year old daughter. in many ways, this letter appeals to me in a very magical way... i hope it does to you too.
night.

when everything is over i tend to reflect...
relationship is not healthy when it is not inclusive...
not inclusive of friends around you,
not inclusive of your families...
two can only have these much to talk about
two can only have these much to do
if there are other people around
relationship will be even more interesting.
if only i can turn back time
if only

i wish to write more but i am still not accustom to my new keyboard...
i realised that though i wish i am stronger... there is just some stuff that i cant accept... even though it has been some days.
i dont wish to share dont wish to talk about it...
it maybe strange but i think i rather live in silence than ... (lost for words)
it hurts still.

something wonderful happened yesterday.
it was so wonderful that i wished it would never end.

i got a tiny keyboard to save space but then it is irritating me cos i cant type properly. urrgh.

something wonderful happened yesterday.
it was so wonderful that i wished it would never end.

i got a tiny keyboard to save space but then it is irritating me cos i cant type properly. urrgh.

one last post written at my beloved office desk... it is 5:27pm now, 3 more minutes to leave this place. forever? i am not too sure about that. ANYTHING can happen in my life. ANYTHING. i will miss this place dearly, no doubt... i will miss those people here... chris, iris, rosie, raymond and casey. yup. all of them...
but i guess it is time to move on with my life...
=)
well, i am going to zouk with them tomorrow night... what a nice bunch of people right? hahahahahahah...

i have a very good reason to go rciy this week... someone finally return my 599 jeans and it is with steph. i am supposed to go get it from her on friday... but i also have a very good reason to skip one more time... i got a desert dinner to go to. -_-

Is he gone? Can you imagine? He asked me to marry him.
Me, the wife of that boorish, brainless . . .

"Madame Gaston!"
Can't you just see it?
"Madame Gaston!"
His "little wife"
No sir! Not me!
I guarantee it
I want much more than this provincial life!

I want adventure in the great wide somewhere
I want it more than I can tell
And for once it might be grand
To have someone understand
I want so much more than they've got planned

i learnt a theory yesterday from fel. the more i think about it, the more convinced i am of her theory. to think about it, it is not really a theory maybe just her thoughts, but, astonishingly, very profound. and it is all about starfish. hah. i never think of that.
i think i want to be a starfish too. few weeks back, i really want to be all powerful and rich. but after working in meritus mandarin, i realised that that is not all to life. i want something even more abstract than that.

i also learnt something about myself.
i am a sucker for love.
i am a die hard romantic.
i am a dreamer.
AND
i dont belong to what i called, the SINGAPORE SOCIETY.

bah
i am happy. i am contented. i feel so much at ease with everything around me.
although,
i hate to say this, but once in a while i feel a tinge of saddness, stress, discontent. yet overall, i must admit. yes, i feel BLESSED.
many wonderful things happened, ever since i came back from hk. i was worried that i might not get a job eventually, due to my usual procastination AND laziness. well, the job found me, i guess. i still remember, i was all dressed up to go groceries shopping with mummy when becky called. then everything happened so quickly. before i knew it, i started work the following monday. at first, everything turned against me. i got NOTHING to do at work. my blog was down and i cant seem to know why... well, eventually, i get over it... in fact, i dont mind going to work AT ALL. even though now, i had to print almost 3000 pages of corporate letters... but BUT. it doesnt matter. i have great companies...... the people there, 90% of them are super duper nice and crappy... 10% of them who are bitchy, fortunately, didnt really appear in front of me often...
i have my own desk. my own extension number. i get to dress up and look smart in a blazer or aka jacket (actually, what the hell is it called anyway?). psst, minus the fact that i ONLY dress up at work cos everyone else does... before and after work, i looked like shit. anyway.
i must say that i love this holiday. yes, i do. this is one of the most enriching holidays i ever have.
and of course, they cannot be perfect without my beloved ones...
hi to fel and changyi, though i have met you all already. i would like to say formally this: 'Welcome Home"
-hugz-