shuxian: enjoys cold minty shower in the morning, reading in the train, getting lost in daydreams, running in the open, browsing in a bookstore, having a slice of cake in the afternoon


i read my last entry and i really think...
throughout the whole 10km run,
we concentrated on my PEE.
really, if only i have recorded down the one sided conversation during the run...

another thing is... bernice kept wearing this rimless specs that i dreamt on that very night, me, ping and bern were together chatting and she was wearing this BRIGHT red pair of specs. and we were like ' SO PRETTY...!' oh tell you, she looked HOT in that red pair of specs lah. then we were bugging her where she got it... she refused to tell and then somehow, i found the receipt and the frame cost a whopping $2000+ dollars and the glass was made of some high tech thingy which also cost about $1000+ . i remembered gasping at the total cost of that puny specs. and you know what... bern gave that VERY PROUD look. i remembered her tilting her head upwards... hahaha...
i should stop thinking about bernice's specs. =)

i have a meaningful weekend... one that i am never going to forget...
i celebrated holy thursday with the rciy people... it was an unforgettable night i would say... we had passover dinner at ada's house(actually, i didnt feel like going cos i know it will end late and my mum might not like it too much...) but then, i dont know, somehow, i just went along... brother mike was there too... i think i like the hebrew musics he brought along... =)
attended good friday mass with ben even though he served in the morning... then had to rush all the way to suntec city to get my biathlon 'outfit' =) got a black FBT shirt and a bright red FBT shorts and a red shoe laces to match it... haha... dinner was at kenny rogers... wonderful chicken and corn...
changyi called me when i was about to sleep =) well, i didnt sleep well though...
woke up at 540 on saturday... reached east coast slightly before 7... man, i was so excited... but, things do turn out wrong for me... after we were flagged off... i plunged into the sea... the cold water chilled my bones... (remember my phobia for sea?) i tried swimming but the waves kept sweeping me back... suddenly, i felt a kick... and then someone kept glabbing me down... i struggled to breathe but instead, i gulped in huge amount of salty water... i panicked... in my fear of drowning i turned away, and swam back to shore... just 5 mins after flag off... can u imagine? i reached shore... feeling SO humilated... the person in charge told me he got to strike off my number on my arm... =( then came the tuck boat with two girls, of which one who kicked and nearly drowned me and a man in forties... i heard him scolding her... 'you should have stayed calm instead.... 'etc etc... okay, she caused two competitors to dropout just like that.
i walked off to get my running gear at the transition area... and then waited for ben... meanwhile i witness ALOT of interesting conversation... between competitors and their loved ones.... "christopher! CHRISTOPHER! WHY ARE YOU STILL SITTING THERE? GO GO GO!" hahaaaa.... -_- decided to run with ben to keep him motivated throughout the entire 10km, it turns out to a nightmare... well, needed to pee after doing 2km... no toilet in sight so i got to run on... then every minute or so... ben said 'are you ok?/ i am going to find you a toilet?/ just hold on okay? ...........' i was like 'BEN! cant answer you... if i talk, i will lose concentration and i will just pee all the way..../ BEN, keep quiet!/ BEN, JUST keep quiet' i think he just get more motivated to entertain me... my pee motivated me throughout my entire run, my urgent need to pee thus looking out for a toilet motivated ben to run. weeeelll. all thanks to my pee huh?
went for my baptism in the evening... i WAS REALLY REALLY REALLY nervous... man... i really am. but it all went well despite last minute instructions... i kept bugging melissa and darren though... =) bern and ping was there... =) wonderful night... and it ended with prata again... =) got a call from yi again... and a call from fel... oh oh... and mandy managed to call me right after i cooled down after my 10km. what a luck man... =)
attended easter sunday with ben again... was totally excited about receiving my first communion... =)
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in short, i felt very blessed to have a very exciting weekend... it was so heart warming to receive calls from yi, mandy and fel... it felt good to hug bern AT LEAST three times in one mass... it felt GOOD to know that ping TURNED up for my baptism despite (i think) she knows that she is going to be quite lonely during the mass... it didnt felt good cos PJ didnt manage to come... but i understand...
it felt good cos i have been waiting for this for so long... right until the moment after i was baptised, i continue to see God's miracle.
i have the worst tiff with ben this weekend,yet, the best time i ever spent with him in a longest while. then came the realisation that come may13, we will be officially together for 3years. many times i have given up on this relationship, many times we have hung on. to think on the brighter side of the biathlon 'mishap', i am just glad that i ran with ben, something we both enjoy doing.

i just want to end with a big THANK YOU to everyone. thank you for the wonderful weekend. THANK YOU.

oh i have a horrible week.
let me tell you what get me so upset and angry and pissed.
i have lent my levi's 599 jeans to this girl called dawn in dec. cos she so wanted to wear a pair of levi's jeans. thinking that she WOULD return it back to me... i didnt have a second thought.
well, a fortnight after, i started hearing nasty comments about her... well, i simply didnt have the time to go ask for the jeans back cos i had companies....
then, yesterday when out of the blue, i missed my 599 jeans, i sms her for it back.
guess what she said
sorrwie, your pair of jeans got hole so i kinda threw it away.
WHAT??????
i was SO pissed when i heard it... THREW IT away?
actually, i think that is impossible... NO ONE will ever throw a pair of levi's jeans away... i think she just want to keep it. FUCK. i want it back. it is levi's!
can anyone tell me what should i do now?
darn.
and i just got myself kicked out of my room... long story... happily asked the contractors to knock down my cupboard and bed... thinking the furniture will arrive in the afternoon and NO, i made a mistake it is coming on the sunday instead. great... the whole house is filled with my rubbish.... and my room is stinking of new paint. well, what can i say?
oh, if you all dont know spending a bit of money, go catch the pooh's heffalump movie... it definitely cheered me up alot.
i still missed my levi's jeans... A LOT.

am i really that tanned?
met jess and boon at NTUC just now and boon was like, 'why are you so tanned?'
even marie said i looked kinda chotah. -_-
i am splurging on sun block lotion... apparently, it didnt work that well enough. what can i do man? and i am using whitening lotion leh (okay i admit i dont apply now and then only when i suddenly remember 'hey, i am so dark')
i am not that kind of lotion girl i guess...
anyway,
i totally forgot about the baptism rehearsal thingy... opps! =/

that's all for now...

okay, this is official...
my baptism name is xavia
was deciding between ruth and xavia... hard decision man... by the way, in case you didnt know, ruth was fiven by changyi and xavia was given by mandy. i like ruth, and i like xavia(i have been thinking about the name xavier but ben keep saying it's a boy's name.)
do you think there is such thing as confirmation name? i wan to use ruth too.
and bernice is going to stand in for mandy as my Godma... heehee...
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sigh, ben wont be able to book out until friday... ='(

i am tanned. really really tanned.
chotah i think...
and now, i finally appreciate fair skins (not that i really like them that much... but too tanned is not that good...)
well, all that nonsense just because of one stupid biathlon which makes me tired just even as i think about it...
oh well...
i can finally do free style... and i can finally do a flip! hahah... all thx to bern. she is good at teaching. i just kinda realise that as i grow older i am, well, more of a coward. sheesh, i cant even gather enough guts to dive in. argh.

it is as though
i am living in a dream...
a wonderful dream...
i cant believe it... i am getting baptised soon. SOON.
although,
i would be much happier
if
certain people are here with me...
but still...
i am thoroughly happy...
esp ever since after yi chatted with me... i was so curious/worried about her... almost thought i'd lost contact with her... =) apparently NOT! =)
-beaming-

eh,
i have decided not to sit for soci paper today. surprised? well, actually i do plan to go and sit for it but then i never even read up on it so i decided not to go for it... i would be wasting three hours doing nothing... and i think i would rather use that three hours to give the people at california gym a piece of my mind. =) actually i dreamt something strange today... i think i did woke up at 8am today... and i told myself i am still tired, half an hour more of sleep would be better... the next thing i knew was that, my soci teacher was telling me, since i didnt turn up today for the soci paper i can resit for it next week... apparently they have this resit timing for every subject... yeah, that's in my dream...and i so believed in it that i slept till 1150... weird.
bleah.

what can be worst when you have mens during your exam period?
is it sign from God that you should zao the exams?
very very tempting.
i finished my maths and stats paper...
3 more to go...
9 hours to endure. urgh!
i feel like quitting....

oh oh... i witnessed a fight in the mrt train! with blood and tears... how drama...