shuxian: enjoys cold minty shower in the morning, reading in the train, getting lost in daydreams, running in the open, browsing in a bookstore, having a slice of cake in the afternoon


swinging the cream white bag,
taking light steps down the familiar bus route
blurred memories to keep company
sweet or bitter whatever they maybe
ahead
lies the forgotten dreams



i have a few skeletons in my closet that i have yet to let it out. there are many times when i wanted to confront them but i am either hindered by laziness or cowardice. recently, i am too busy trying to catch up with life that i dont even bother to dwell on it. yet, they are still going to be there until one day, i do something about it.

well then again. i had a wonderful weekend... friday night was a blast... prata then bridge... =) sat, the whole day was spent with family (had not done that for the longest while...) sun, (though i dread a few moments of it...) it was fun... witnessed three officers collapse during the president speech... had a teary moment when this guy who collapsed and then got up again, had to be dragged out of the parade square... part of me was like, darn you medic. this guy wants to continue with the parade! part of me was like... oh my god. he must have felt horrible. enjoyed most when i ate dinner with ping's friend... =) i dont know them much but their jokes and stories were really entertaining... what a way to end off the evening right? =)

i was pretty excited about the forcoming com's ball... but i think it just died yesterday. cant be bothered already lah. oh and i just cut my hair short. as if, SHORT. not the sec two hairstyle lah but definitely shorter than my usual length. and on top of that, i got it permed. =) and for the first time of my life, i didnt even bother about how it turns out during the haircut, didnt even care how it really looks after the haircut. i just said to mum, there new hairstyle.

=)


i had a nice weekend.
a few things to note...
i really enjoy shopping... not that i offen have the time to shop, the purpose to shop and the money to shop, but all in all, i love shopping. from just buying simple things like groceries in NTUC to clothes in town to useless stuff in watson to whatever in wherever. =)
all men looks good in suit, so, ben looks good in suit. (except he should do something about his hairstyle)
indecisiveness leads to ultimate joy. like, ben took a long time to decide what he wants so i had more time to shop around. haha.
men's clothes are somehow more expensive than women's. more complicated too. or at least the things i wear or want to wear are so much less complicated than ben's.

=) somethings are better left unblogged.
oh i havent played mu in the longest while. went online yesterday and i felt so good. was in DS and in a party. halfway through killing all those never seem to die monsters, i shouted... 'arrgh... it is getting tough now... =(' then the team leader was like 'all move back to protect the elf' then, these two idiots was like still whacking the monsters... so the leader was like ' MOVE BACK NOW' =) heehee... they formed a circle around me... i felt so important and protected for once. haha... oh no... then again, you all wont understand what i am saying... nevermind...

=)


i think the school really enjoys stressing up the students leh...
sigh.
i got mock exams (full paper) starting on 28th feb.
no mushy moshy valentine's day for me...
no happy chinese new year for me...


heehee... but then again, i always seems to find a way to have fun. well well...

and GASP!
my first UOL paper is on 10th may!!! last paper is on 19th but STILL?!
sobz sobz
how am i ever going to last through all these? sigh...




cant exactly describe how i feel...
this,
i would never know the answer to it.
sadly,
no one can help me...
wish i could confide in ben...
but if he knows,
'we' would die.



i have a great time last night...
met up with ann, huiwen, kelvin and zebin... had BK at PS and for me, heehee, extra cheese fries from KFC... well, all in all, we had fun talking and catching up... with me asking a few really stupid and silly questions and of course, being answered in the exact same way... -_- same old people with same old style of talking... same old habits (of not knowing where to go after eating... haha...) i would say everyone was looking fabulous... especially ann, woo.... SIA air stewardess... not fair, already she has been to frankurt(is that how it is spelt) new york... and the list goes on... and thing is, she gets to stay in 5STAR hotels all the time... and get paid too! what the hell am i doing man...? haha... =)
all too good. =)
i missed cj life in a way, wished that i could do more then... anyway...


i am seriously broke. left with $6 in my wallet and i am comtemplating whether or not to get more money from mum to go ping's house later anot. hmm. anyway, reason why i am so broke is that ben was out on mon and tues. haha... took a mc cos he was running late =)
anyway, was reading this Mitch Albom's 'the five people you meet in heaven' and i was totally engrossed with it. ben bought it at a secondhand bookstore and passed it to me yesterday. as a result i spent my entire lect reading it. would definitely recommend you all to go read it. really.
oh and i finally realised that Gilmore Girls is rather heartwarming... i am abit slow in all these... =)


oh and talking about money,
i am always broke. was made bankrupt during x'mas and since then, i have been trying my very best to get out of it. i still owe mandy another $20. -_-
and until 10th jan, i have $17 left.
it would be a miracle if i can survive on that.



i started school with a nonchalant attitude... even dosed off halfway thru the lect... -_- it is maths, u must understand. how 'interesting' can probability gets?
hasnt been blogging lately due to some mishap in life =) anyway, there is nothing to mention about. my mind is just too stressed over about how to catchup on my studies. and trust me, THERE IS ALOT to do... well...
as a whole, i did enjoy my holidays well. had great company, had a great time and lots of smiles... it would have been better if i have taken out some time for volunteer work... it would have been better... hmmm....
anyway, i got to go tell mummy i need another freaking $2000+ for my examination fees... sigh...