shuxian: enjoys cold minty shower in the morning, reading in the train, getting lost in daydreams, running in the open, browsing in a bookstore, having a slice of cake in the afternoon


i just came back from the surgery and gosh... i am feeling the pain now... ouch... sad thing is my lips are still numb but my wounds are not. -_-
the pain is killing me. well, mandy, if you happen to read this... i dont think i have the guts to walk outta my house tmr cos, already, my lips swell up and so is my right chin. well... i am in a lot of pain now...
maybe playing mu might distract me... maybe.... =)
thanx, pz, yi and mandy and fel too for your support eh.... =) and so sorry shouie, go out with you next week? =)


it seems to me that i havent been that cheerful ever since thurs. and it is rather obvious. hmmm. i dont know.
err. actually i know and i dont wish to know.

tell you all this, something magical has happened to me on christmas. or at least i found it so touching, encouraging and so utterly unbelievable that, it is magical.
attended the the midnight mass in cathedral and the choir is OH SO GOOD! anyway, that's besides the point... i sat beside this old lady that looked so prim and proper... her posture was upright, whenever me and ben exchanged comment she would be like 'ahem' =) anyway, when mass was ended, i knelt down to pray for a few seconds. when i got up, this lady extended her hand and said, ' merry christmas, and i hope you will be come a catholic soon.' i was so dumbfounded that i just shook her hand, sputtering nonsense... what a nice gesture! i was so touched.
i wonder if i ever see her again anot.




i find this christmas toughly satisfying...
for almost all my life, christmas is all about shopping and walking up and down the orchard road... or maybe making presents since sec 3.
and then, last two years my christmas was spent working in NTU, listening to those few christmas songs played over and over again...
this year is different.
for once, i didnt work.
=)
i had wonderful company throughout the december... i caught up a lot with my beloved brother, devoted a great amount of time to my mum, and of course my dearest friends... i felt so happy... especially meeting bernice... =)
it is great to have mandy and fel around too... it is great to cycle with huiwen... it is all too great to have a lunch with cheehwee... and the best part was, i met maxine today and we fixed a day to meet up too! next friday...
all of a sudden, i felt so blessed...

i received a christmas card today and i was really really touched. this would mean a lot to me... i dont know why, but i really treasure the thought behind it. thank you.


=)



I JUST CANT BELIEVE THIS
i missed ben's call AGAIN!
for the THIRD time
i am so mad with myself.
so sad.


just would to tell someone
who has been through thick and thin with me...
who has guided me in many ways
in times of joy, he is neglected
in times of sorrow, he is offen remembered
thus,
i would like to express my thanx to him, through this post,
acknowledging his hard work
and he is
God
thank you for answering all my prayers...
from 'please let the next bus be... 167'
or 'please let me be on time'
to things like 'just let me control my anger'
and 'let me be patient for a little while longer'
=) thank you for ALWAYS answering my prayer...
i am leaving everything in Your hands,
may U continue to bear with me =) and all my nonsense, my sleepy rosary prayers, my sloppy unplanned prayers, and of course my sins.
heehee. there, i didnt forget You.



i am brooding over a lot of things lately... somehow, i was quite pissed with several issues...
and to make things worse, i missed ben's call twice. sigh...
well for this job interview and i was shocked.
=)
everyone had put on quite a bit of makeup, dressed smartly, did their hair in a bun or combed it nicely...
except me.
no makeup, wore a pants, my hair, haha... the wind styled it for me i would say... =)
interview was good and i wont get that job, not my type. dont think they will want me too... i was pretty childlike inside, the youngest there in fact... and halfway through my 'speech' i giggled. haha...
=) met this pretty lady called joy. and we can get along pretty well... cool... =)
but still to miss ben's call becos of this is not worth it...
well... anyway...
looking forward to my 2nd last week of hols... ben should be back next week, christmas... meeting up with cheehwee... and yup yup... all's too well.




oh no.
i am getting my another wisdom tooth extracted soon.
most prob right after christmas...
-sobz-
my right cheek's going to be swollen,
i am going to lose so much of blood
=(



Slow down you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart tell me why
You are still so afraid?

Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You better cool it off before you burn it out
You got so much to do and only
So many hours in a day

But you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want
Or you an just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through
When will you realize...vienna waits for you

Slow down you're doing fine
You can't be everything you want to be
Before your time
Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight

Too bad but it's the life you lead
You're so ahead of yourself
That you forfeit what you need
Though you can see when you're wrong

But you know you can't always see when you're right
You got your passion you got your pride
But don't you know only fools are satisfied?
Dream on but don't imagine they'll all come true
When will you realize
Vienna waits for you

Slow down you crazy child
Take the phone off the hook and disappear for a while
It's alright you can afford to lose a day or two
When will you realize...
Vienna waits for you.


=) been really busy ever since ben left for thailand. great, at least life still goes on without him. =) well, went out for cj class gathering yesterday and it was rather enjoyable. was very envious when i saw jinzhen and jinhan driving around. somemore, jinzhen drove her mum's two days old car. wow... cool aint? haha... well, still not thoroughly motivated to get my license... unlike my people of my age... =) take things slow and easy eh.
well, going for my chalet tomorrow. i find it quite a small scale chalet... heehee, but that's the way it should be. enough room for everyone to catch up. wondering if yvonne is reading this anot. but if she does... well, i really am disappointed by the way you are treating the ij friends. so long never see and yet not excited to come. not that i told you that late that you cant come. just an appearance wont matter what. sigh. whatever, if you dont treasure our friendship, no one else will. at least not me, i made the effort k.

ooohh... btw, i saw this clutch bag at country road this evening and it was SO pritty!!! $200++ hmmm... oh, and i kinda know what i want for my com ball's dress. a white silk cheong sam that is $1200, ben is so going broke. (haha... actually trying to pyscho mummy to get for me... =) ...) sad thing is, they dont have my size and to have it ordered, another 10% charge. waliao. sobz sobz.

got to go sleep liao. tried to play mu earlier but... sever so slow, keep dying, waste zen and experience point... =( bleah.


i know this IS bad but i aint going to care.
haha...
i am skipping mock exam,
yes, hear that?
skipping mock exam.
and that feeling is oh-so-shiok. haha...
already i have many plans for this week already.
quite a bit lah yeah. heehee.
meeting mandy tmr and i am feeling so excited already... all those promises of going out together and having fun are coming true... cant wait! =)
on a sadder note... i think ben is so going to be disappointed... =( never mind, he would brighten up on the note that i can spend the thurs with him before he leaves
=) smile, shuxian is finally free!
blah =p