shuxian: enjoys cold minty shower in the morning, reading in the train, getting lost in daydreams, running in the open, browsing in a bookstore, having a slice of cake in the afternoon


a quick entry before i rush off to school...
wat can i say... almost satisified with life now... ALMOST.
i have loads to study but yet make a point to. reason being i am awfully tired and i am awfully busy. well... i am one tutorial behind my maths, one tutorial behind my POB, THREE tutorials behind my sociology(reason being printer spoilt and i cant print all my stuffs) err... one lect behind my econs. i am lagging...
other than that, i am happy.
mandy is back and i just dont feel i am spending enuff time with her... sheesh... missed her so much yet i am not doing anything... this is bad...
sch is much more fun now cos of some interesting pple but then... tuesday... sigh... all of them doing business management... sheesh... nvm, still got 2 pretty gals in my group to keep me company... and they are really pretty...
well, pretty much for now, days are quite packed... oh and i managed to go to weekday mass yesterday at risen christ!!! fel, they are not using the ground floor room already... heehee... and the church suddenly just looked so beautiful... =)
that's all for now, folks... bye!


HAD A FANTASTIC DAY TODAY.
somehow, this special person kept making my day complete with happiness.
sch was pretty fun today cos i got friends! now... haha...
then, i met cheehwee for dinner today... while waiting for her, i went to shop for mandy's prezzie... to send it to her and surprise her! so i chose something... ...
and then, me and cheehwee ate at pasta mania, she got discount!!! cool!!! then we walked around... talked alot... surprisingly we have alot to share and it was all too good... i dont even feel awkward at all!!! =) cool...
and then and then when i was on the way home... on the bus. mandy called me (she promised to anyway...) and then she asked me whether i am free this saturday and meet up and then i was like puzzled... HOW? then she was like, i am in the airport.
well, needless to say, i think the people around me was like looking at me in a weird way... maybe i was loud... maybe... hmmm...
BUT the point is
MANDY IS BACK!!! BACK!!! BACK!!!
my goodness!!! MANDY IS BACK!!!!
aint God smiling at me?!


=)
this is for a very special person...
whom i am not able to hug right now...
thank you for your invaluable friendship
i am looking forward to your homecoming
-hugz-


am i too greedy? i dont know...
my family has always been mooncake freaks. i dont know but mooncake festival means a lot to us... (traditional chinese, i know, i know...) just yesterday alone, err... we have, like, five boxes of mooncakes... of which two have been consumed. and me and kor have just ordered for more! raffles hotel's truffle with granche, goodwood park's D24 durian... =) and the hong kong, meixin brand too. mummy likes shangri la's mixed nuts... and i am making MORE mooncakes this sun...! haha... i already have paste like, white lotus, green tea and durian... yeep yeep.
anyone want to try my handmade ones? i would recommend the green tea one, my specialities... haha...! =)
on a sadder note... ben got handphone ban in camp. cos one idiot used the phone after light's off and the whole wing cant use the phone AT ALL, batts are confiscated once they book in and only given back to them when they book out. sheesh.
and know what? i think ben and pj's boyfren are in the same camp. interesting. nee soon right? hmmm... there got GOOOOD prata!!! heehee.


finally recognised a familiar person in one of my classes...
rebecca from cj, student council. sigh...
one familiar but unknown soul...
am currently down with a fever so i dont know how am i going to sit three hours in the awfully cold room later... sheesh...
and not to mention i didnt do any homework last night, and some read up for later... sheesh...
and i am not happy about things lately... is that why i am sick???


beauty
as it has struck me as something abstract
watching 'raising helen' staring at kate hudson
i was wondering what beauty mean.
everyone thinks that they are the prettiest (or so it seems) but who really are?
what are the standards? who sets them?
yet, we recognise BEAUTY
why? are we born into it? are we taught how to judge it?
how are we qualified then, to say someone beautiful?
is one beautiful becos the way she dress herself?
is one beautiful becos of her complexion?
is one beautiful becos of her personality?
is one beautiful becos of her confidence she has in herself?
i stared at kate hudson the min she appeared on the screen.
never had i come across someone this beautiful...
so innocence so pure so warm so lovely so desirable...
beyond description
does anyone disagree with me? it is fine, you know... doesnt matter. what's beauty anyway?
what are the standards and who sets them anyway?
kate hudson rocks.


lost
in this huge ocean
swept
by this huge current
feel
the emptiness
feel
the helplessness
drowning drowing drown
dying dying dead



'oh shit, i've learnt this before... but i just cant remember what's it.'
'all this sounds familiar...'
'what? standard deviation is used here? wait a min, what's standard deviation?!'
'right... why am i learning functions?'
'isnt this question i used to do in jc? how come i dont know how to do now?'

horrible thoughts that filled my mind for the last two days in school. my class never fails to surprise me. just as i thought the first week got no tutorials, i stayed back for POB tutorials yesterday. sucky. just as i thought jc 40min lecture is killing, i am having 1hr30mins lecture now. ultimate suicide. think the poor girl sitting behind me is suffering cos i kept figdeting about. this is killing me. i dont know how long your lecture is for the rest of you but i cant take mind, seriously.
received my application approval yesterday and i need to fork out another 445pounds for some stupid books which i think i wont need them but compulsory. sigh.
and i think uni life is rather lonely... okay, largely part of it is my fault. the attitude i have is go school get my degree and get out of it. not that i want being alone but i am just not too keen. what ever right? then God answered my prayer yesterday, ALMOST immediately. to come and think of it, i was rude. this tutor was like asking us to form groups to study... and then, i was like 'what?' so while i was busy trying to figure out my questions, i was like telling God 'nah, You brought me to stansfield, so great, You got to find me a group!' then ALMOST instantly, this girl on my right is like 'hey, join us!' how wonderful God can answer prayer right?
sheesh...
and i was so stressed yesterday that i ended up losing my patience with ben. feel so bad now... whatever. i am just not too happy now...


sch started today... nothing big deal actually... i was almost nervous, almost excited, but largely, numb. i didnt feel the necessity to mix around and talk... just want to do my stuff and get out... anyway, the lect was boring and i was almost going to yawn... =) anyway, can you believe this? i have HOMEWORK!!! sheesh... okay, am going to do them after friends...
anyway, ANYWAY, i am very happy today. haha. wont share wat's it! heehee.


mandy is cute. haha... look at my tagboard and you will understand... let's do that to fel's blog eh? she MIA longer than me... haha...
well, to entertain and satisfy my dearest mandy, here is it.
been to galilee centre on mon as usual... except the kids are really bullying me this time round... promised them i would get them sweets the next time i see them so yar, i must remember this. anyway, wont be going down next week cos they have hols, yup yup.
tuesday, woke up super early and went to fetch ben. cos that means that i missed the ij mass... oh well, what more can i say? anyway, went to his house, helped him unpacked... type his ten rules of simplicity out for him... then we wanted to go meet boon for lunch but then... couldnt set a time and we decided to go catch 13 going to 30 which in the end when we rushed there, tix was sold out. and so halfway thru the burger king and king's ice cream i realised I GOT VOLUNTEER WORK!!! sheesh. missed it and i dont even have the no. to call... yi is so going to be mad at me... anyway, was dead tired by the time i went home and i went promptly to sleep...
wednesday, decided to camp at home... -_- after all that hectic days and strength draining activities... sigh...
thursday, went out to shop, =) got a school bag... no no no, a tote bag for school... haha... and then another demin skirt. and i went searching for my Baby G... found this baby purple one i like, my choice rather limited cos i am allegic to plastic so i can choose only those with clothy strap... called my kor and he asked me to go either bugis or pennisular there to buy cos it is way cheaper... yup i went to bugis and it was nearly $ 60 cheaper! scared that they might be fake i didnt buy... will see how today... =) oh mandy do you still have your blue baby G? i was looking around and i suddenly remembered yours... it brought back GOOD memories... =)
anyway, today, i am heading off to gym now... then go get my baby G, hang around in town... (still got my pencil case... i still havent seen one i like...) then go for rciy tonight...=)
okie.
this should be suffice right mandy? i love you! let's go tag at fel's blog!