shuxian: enjoys cold minty shower in the morning, reading in the train, getting lost in daydreams, running in the open, browsing in a bookstore, having a slice of cake in the afternoon


just came back from a jog with ... ... guess who? ... ... haha... yvonne!!! okay, she's very much alive and still the same old yvonne (der!) but as usual i enjoyed the run as much as i enjoyed her company... we met at toa payoh mrt station... was rather unwilling to get out of my bed cos i slept at one last night... =( heehee! we ran to macRitchie... and had prata after that! nice... oh and the best part is i am going over to her hostel to stayover for a night next thurs! =) so happy!
oh and i got my bible too!!! went out to makan last night with the rciy people and they are getting more and more interesting each week... get to talk to more of them yesterday and it was fun! =) and the lovely thing is that i dont get to be sent home for once... haha... i was that old you see everyone was complaining how they had to messaged ada when homed and how ada had to find a partner for them... =) all too fun!
=)
well, i am all spent now. ever since the day ben left, i havent spent a day at home... all i hope now is a good book (i have already) and a whole day (which i dont) and some peace (which i dont) and some comfort (which i can find) ... sigh.


hee hee... i am so happy now!
i got five mickey mouses
want to know how i got them? well, i accidentally bought this packet of corn flakes (i think it is called snow flakes) and i found a grey mickey mouse inside!!! and it rocks from right to left and left to right!!! totally rocks!!! so i went back to get somemore... and becos the shelve has only four boxes left and the flavour is the plain plain one... so i grab it all frm the shelve and made my mummy promised to eat them for me!!! =) okay lah, i will eat some too... well, i got five rocking mickey mouse now!!! =)
so happy!!!


so glad i finally attend a weekday mass in risen christ alone! =) went there right after gym!!! got inspired to do something during the mass, heehee...
and guess what too? i am going for marathon training with yvonne this sat!!! yay!!! my life isnt that boring after all when ben's not around... to come and think about it, i have been out ever since he went overseas! but then... i miss him quite a bit...
sigh...



to say i miss ben is an understatement, never had my prayers been so serious and long... never had i passed a second without scaring myself with 'what if'.
yet God always has His plans for me...
i went to ij day care centre yesterday and i must say it was really really enjoyable... hours passed like seconds and i wanted to say 'why is the session so short?' the children are so cute... but they bully me... esp this pri5 girl, driving me nuts... we played dog and bone before they go home and they were like... ' why you never call my no.?' and the thing is that ALL of them said that and what can i do??? but nevertheless they are cute... esp this little boyboy who i didnt teach but were so friendly that in the end before i left, he said 'see you tomoro!' so CUTE!!!
haha... i will be going down today to take yi's place =)
about the previous post, i am going to delete it or see whether i can hide it... it isnt fair to someone, i guess. end of story.
oh and did i mention i saw mrs nicholas (ij teacher remember?) in california gym? so shocked when i saw her... and not fair... she so fit also got a personal trainer... and somemore quite good looking leh... well compared to the rest of the trainer... that should be a above average one. cool right? =)
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i am upset
BUT
if you know me well
you will
know
how i really feel
if you are
my friend
you will
respect
my decision
you will
understand
if you are
not
then
i have
nothing to
say
period


this is really really bad...
my skin is like in a really bad condition esp my face and i am still indulging on heaty stuffs.
but cant really blame me, can u? when you see boxes and boxes of D24 durians in front of u, i am pretty sure u will just eat right?
that's right, and that's what i did! ate two boxes last night, one box just now and i feel.... wonderful! there goes my skin complexion... =)
right. for some reasons, i am not feeling too good today. i need to apologise to someone but not too sure whether she will understand anot... things are too complicated and i am at fault. i can only blame my not-functioning-properly brain. sigh...


lookie! a new blogskin! =)
ciaoz!


on my way for some tea yesterday... i saw....
MAXINE!
and guess what, she just came back from NUS and she is doing....
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LAW!!!
what a damn bloody smart girl...
but i expected her to be anyway...
she top the class as always in primary school...
then she went to raffles girls...
then she scored dont noe how many As...
then she went to RAFFLES junior college...
and now,
she landed herself in LAW!!!
sheesh! shouldnt that be relatively hard to get in???
i think she got all As for her paper lah... opps, forgot to ask her how's her s paper...
but anyway, that's a real achievement yar?

but seeing her yesterday brought back many of my childhood dreams...
just like seeing daniel in bishan... can you believe how small this world is?
changyi knew him too!!! and the whole time she was talking about him to me the other time except she didnt bother to mention his name cos she tot that i wouldnt know him anyway...
surprise, surprise, surprise...




some sick bug out there and obviously i caught it...
and i have been feeling feverish all the time... tot i recovered fully on friday afternoon so i went to breeks for dinner... ate so bloody full that me and ben had difficulty walking. okie, that's when the trouble sets in... i got diarrhea 20mins after i walked out of the restuarant... sigh... ended up sitting beside the river watching waves with ben (pretty romantic to think about it...)
and then, when i went home, i got a full blown fever again!
sigh... sat, despite everything... i still went out with ben... and then i was feeling better and then sunday morning, dah tah!!! diarrhea again. but i still make it to church. sunday night, fever again. now i am still abit of feverish...
now tell me how am i supposed to go ij home like that? what if mine is a flu bug and i pass to them how? hope changyi will understand... sheesh. i feel so rotten and sick.
going to bed again....


got a slight fever last night and i felt so sick that i felt upset with everything around me... horrible... dont even know why am i that sick...
sheesh...
and i got a tough decision to make... should i go for my 13th dinner which is rather special cos someone is leaving for brunei next week or should i attend the RCIY which i already missed it last week since i went for the social night instead? i need to choose and whatever the outcome is, i will feel bad no matter what... and this is bad...

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i read mandy's blog and i was really really touched and speechless. and thus i want to share with every one of you this. i never exactly remember how me and mandy met... we didnt have a significant beginning... no quarrelling, no handshake nothing... in fact all i can remember is that i sat beside her and she beside me... i dont know if we share many interest but we do share many opinions. she was the one who corrected me on my pronounciation on restuarant. i pronouce it as res-tua-rant... and she patiently told me the right one and see to it that i master it. she was the one who introduced me into catholic faith always telling me "we christians believe..." or "christian values..." =), she was the one who i always share my opinions of girls with... like "look at her butt..." or "my goodness, did you see...." =) and for the first year in JC, we kind of lost contact with each other, cos she was all the way in bona vista and i am in thomson? but we still meet up once in a while... and then, when she went overseas, we got even closer. i am always glad that i got to know her... she's so poor thing actually, always got to listen to my whinnings and cursings and irritating unhappy events of my life... sheesh... there're lots more to our relationship...
but know that i am proud to know you as my friend, my close friend and my best friend. i love you, mandy. you must be proud that, you know more things about me than ben does!!! -grinz- oh oh, and you must study hard and do me proud kaez!!! -hugz-!



hmm... ... my tuesday is ever so boring. grocery shopping and grocery shopping... went for my evening jog... (sheesh, i cant run for christ's sake! it wasnt that long since i last jog!!! okay, wait a minute... isnt that... about a week ago???? nevermind.) and then i paid the library a visit and i saw someone i didnt like from cjc. this girl, cant remember what's her name cant even be BOTHERED to remember her name to be exact... stared at me for a min and i returned her stare... and then, that's it. i am so disgusted so i left the lib.
what the hell.
oh and there's this interesting thing... ben's friend commented that i looked hot on that social night. Excuse me, but i think he is either too blind or never seen a girl before! my dressing is plain and simple and there's no makeup, no hair done, no obvious nail polish (i scratch it!) except for my super high heels... err. you call that hot, i got nothing better to say. i am pretty sure there's lots of people out there vomiting! =)
sigh.
okay, going down to stansfield later to finish up whatever documents they need to fill up and then da-tah! i am off to gym!!! let's see if i can make it for the body compact class anot... -pout-
have fun, people!


ahem. for those who has MSN out there, i have one now... it's my email address go add me k? esp fel since i couldnt add u... arrrgh!
oh i finally went to watch brotherhood and i cried so hard!!! my eyes were puffy when i got out of the cinema. sheesh.
other than that, i have nothing much to say, except that i am not very patriotic(is that how you spell it?) =( i couldnt be bothered to watch NDP... haha...
oh and you know what, i walked into the california gym on sunday just to ask if they have a promotion and then.... i went back in the evening with my mum to sign up! HAH! cant believe it... i was telling mummy abt it... and she said 'you want? how much? okay, let me take a nap and then we go down.' that's it! =) sheesh... i am too pampered already...
=p nah, not yet, no one is too pampered!


to begin with, social night is an okay okay okay event... ping zhi looked so preeetty... (as usual...) always pulling off this simple and 'i am goddness' look. sheesh... okay... and i saw many other pretty girls too... -grinz- and i also learned that, tanned skin looks good with jeans but in dresses, not many can carry that model thingy look. whatever. saw this girl with a damn obvious bikini tan and she's (whispering) urgh! well well well. never mind about the fact that, someone sabo ben... embarrassing totally embarrassing...! oh and i didnt fall flat on the floor... haha... and i covered quite a astonishing distance in that heels!!! sheesh! oh and know what, i cant speak chinese now. not as in cant speak... but i am lousy... was trying to converse with the girl next to me, ben's buddy's date... in chinese, "dui loh, yu de tu zi le you hen duo ... ... ... ... ... ... (5 horrible seconds) ku tou." basically, if my hanyu pinyin is that lousy and you cant figure out what i am saying, it goes, "yah loh, the fish's tummy has alot of bones" and i cant remember how to say bone in chinese... and it is utterly embarrassing! and that shut me up the whole night after that... and you know what, ben is the platoon 2nd best sleepy head!!! he got caught on the video! so cute! oh and i am losing A LOT of hair! was so screwed up that day... must admit that it is my fault that i still went out with changyi thinking i can get everything done... but then sigh... screwed up and screwed up.... in the end couldnt do my hair and nails... so while trying very hardly to tie a half pony tail with my still damp nail polished nails which i scatched it in the end but didnt bother... i realised i got this patch on my head that is rather bald... urgh! damn it! in the end i cant do anything except to gel abit that's all... whatever... the night is over...
pretty exciting though... love the shopping and the anticipation and know what? the com's ball is up next in a few months' time and I have to get a FORMAL dress. what the hell...
watched [the notebook] just now and i would say the director didnt do a good job, is it the director or the producer??? anyway, it is a damn good book by nicholas spark and it is lousy on the screen... read the book instead if you intend to watch it...
err... and ... i am anticipating a very busy week ahead again. well... life.
happy national day to all! -hugz- proud to be a singaporean but i wont be sure i will stay here for long! heehee!


err...
okay, let me tell u what happened to me so far. here it goes...
on tuesday, i went to work... met ping zhi there... =) i got a friend!!! basically, i am the telephone operator cum rubbish worker... anything they dont want to do i do. and then, i went to meet ben in boon lay after work. sheesh, i think i embarrassed myself in front of ben's friends... dont know and wont dwell on it... tsk tsk.
oh and then, haha, due to insufficient sleep and i think a little bit of over pampering from mummy, i decided not to turn up the next day! slept till 12noon! and you know what, i feel GOOD the whole day!!! working sux working sux working sux, period. and then i messaged kelly this friendly woman in the office that i am quitting, in the night.
heehee. my shortest job ever!!! actually the pay is good, but the hours too long, and my mum kinda hinted that i dont really need to work, and ben's having block leave next week, and then and then...., soooo... the rest is history.
and today, i am supposed to meet changyi for com services but then... my mum's left eye is so swollen, felt really bad so i accompanied her to e doc instead... and on the way, i got my earings (so proud of them! they are big, many and dangling, yeah, that's how i would describe it...) and my dangling bracelets too! tadah... too happy now.
okay, that's about it... and you know what, i know this little boy through MU and he is absolutely adorable... and he is a pinoy too! hopefully he is related to rose somehow... -crossing my fingers-
okay, big day tomorrow. urgh! ben said there will be a dance... sheesh!!! how to dance in my heels!!! gosh!!! no way man!
ah, crap!
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went to visit shouie today, sent her my condolences... yarde yarde yarde... and guess what? i found myself a job! basically, i was chatting with her when this women, kelly called her. she then asked if shouie is free to work till next week. shouie said no and asked me instead. actually, i declined but, she passed me the phone...
i called her back when i reached home (decided that i wont mind earning some extra money since i have nothing to do provided they let me off early for this thurs and fri...) so surprised they agreed! haha. me starting work tmr... 9-6 and 5.5 per hour cool huh? -grinz- and the best part is... i am working in pingzhi's company!!! what a coincidence!!! =) thanx shouie!!!
and i went for my 10 rounds jog today after missing in action on the track for dont know how many days... and i think i run better in the evening... tsk tsk tsk.
anyway, i am hooked on to mu AGAIN! now playing my elf character... heehee...! and i got two friends now from mu!!! double cool!!! =)


oh my god! ben's training shed got struck by lightning... 5 casualties... sheesh...



i am just so so so so happy with myself...
went out to town (again.) and i finally found the lovely pair of sandals i am going to wear on social night. and everything will be exactly what i want them to be. it will be so blend-into-the-crowd but at the same time (hopefully) different and (i am) comfortable with. and my sandals are bronze in colour!!! oh but one thing is i think it is about 3 1/2 inches high... so yar, probably i might fall flat on my face the moment i step out of my taxi............. but who cares!

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on the other extreme side of my day... i would like to convey my heartfelt condolences to my shouie... i am so sorry to hear about that... really really sorry. was half asleep when you messaged me this morning and so the message didnt really get into my head. then when i woke up at 11:58 (yeah, THAT late) i was like gosh! how could this be happening... dont worry dear girl... i will be praying for you and your family... everything is in God's hand. i love you and stay strong kaez? -hugz-